We at Indigo blue Creations, believe that dis-ease is anything psychological
and/or physiological that inhibits an individual in experiencing and
expressing his/her magnificence. Indigo blue Creations takes a holographic
look at what contributes to the pathology of dis-ease such that it's
extreme expression, manifests as polarized or hyperactive behavior.
Heredity,
traumatic experiences and an unstable environment all contribute to
an imbalance that occurs within the mind, body and spirit. Lack of
life-affirming nurturement affects the individual's psychological
well being while insufficient amounts of healthy foods, physical exercise
and nature undermines physiological needs.
This
illustration of The Holographic Self was created by Rich
Ruster, co-founder
of Co-Creative
Culture, LLC, Boulder, Colorado. See
Holographic
Self for larger version.
On
a soul level, as we encarnate into physical form to develop our individualized
self, we experience a split between our spiritual Self and our humaness.
Spiritually, dis-ease, ultimately, is caused by the illusion that
we are separate from our Self as Creator. Ultimately, our journey
home becomes one of integrating our ego 
with
our divine Nature. To do this, we possess a soul blueprint, an internal
map that houses our life lessons that assist us on our earthly journey,
our circle of life , of coming
home to our authentic and essential self.
These
lessons are revealed to us throughout lifetimes as we learn from our
cultural archetypal entities,
how to become the hero and herione within as we move out of denial
and embrace the aspects of ourself that respond to life as victim,
marty and perpetrator. We
also are influenced by our cultural myths, legends and stories. Some
of the most powerful myths are those we hold collectively about God.
For some, deep within the subconscious, is tremendous fear of being
punished or judged by a righteous God we have co-created through our
collective stories held sacred within the bible. It it also through
our collective culture that through crisis and illness, we are offered
an opportunity to reflect upon what is sacred and valuable to us,
re-membering the preciousness of life. As we come home to what matters
to our heart, we come home to our soul. In communion with our spirit;
our dis-ease, serving as a cataylst for spiritual emergence, transforms.
When
dis-ease expresses itself as ADHD & Bi-Polar Disorder
We
at Indigo blue Creations believe that codependency and intergenerational
family emeshment plays a powerful role in the expression of
Bi-Polar Disorder and ADHD. In the August19, 2002 issue of TIME Magazine,
Lizzie Simon speaks of how on the day her grandfather died, her madness
began. In his book Broken Toys, Broken Dreams" Terry
Kelloggs explains the family system dynamic and this 'passing of
the buck' phenomena: "The family is a system, with all parts
connected and impacting each other at different levels in various
ways. It is a system with rules, roles, boundaries, components, and
principals, a system that seems to maintain it self intergenerationally
and is fueled by denial.
It
is believed that one or more family members become the identified
patient(s) or symptom bearers of the family dysfunction, which may
be addictions, relationship problems or some other secret issue. This
is the one who frequently ends up with a diagnosis of: depression,
schizophrenia, anti-social, borderline, dependent, manic or bipolar."
Because
we were hurt in some way as children, we feel especially singled out
for harm, especially wounded explains Wayne Muller in his book,
Legacy of the Heart, The Spiritual Advantages of a Painful Childhood.
"It feels like no one could ever know how badly we hurt. Our
wounds made us special-unique victims of terrible injustice - and
we felt isolated, unique and somehow different from everyone else.
But if we are unlike anyone else, the the healing available for others-
belonging and sanctuary, abundance and mercy - will remain forever
beyond our reach. Holding onto the particularity of our suffering,
we place ourselves, our gifts and our wounds outside the circle of
the rest of humanity. As a special case, we are not suspectible to
the treatments and miracles that work for "normal" people.
And so, we feel condemned to suffer alone." At
the expense of setting themselves apart from the rest of the family
and the world, they experience
isolation and loneliness as they are caught in a polarity between
feeling needed yet different from everyone else.
Codependency
When
childrens' needs are met satisfactorily and consistently, they receive
that which they need to develop healthly. If
parents are dysfunctional - emotionally unavailable, codependent or
abusive - verbally or physically, the child develops a regressed inner
child that lives within the individual through adulthood. When a child
does not receive what it needs holistically to grow organically, it
becomes emeshed in codependent relationships between family members
until one or more members are willing to break the bond that maintains
the collusion of these relationships on subconscious and unconscious
levels. This type of parenting and family dysfunctionality was the
norm a generation ago.
If
the child is cared for or loved conditionally, the child will split
from his or her natural self, creating an adaptive self. In the dance
of codependency, the child becomes a victim, complying to the needs
of his parents in hopes of receiving what he needs, yet when these
needs go unmet, the child becomes angry and rebellious to his outer
authority.
The mother attempts to rescue the child but is in conflict because
of her codependent need to be taken care of. As victims, the mother
and child experience feeling 
helpless
and hopeless to changing their environment. As martyrs, they live
isolated lives, feeling powerless in their inability to contribute
to changing the world.
The
core
belief formed by the inner child is that s/he is"not good enough",
creating an internal void which lends itself to long-term bouts with
depression. As
long as the inner child believes that her/his parents neglected or
abused her/him because s/he was not perfect, capable, or lovable enough",
the regressed child within an adult body, will look outside her/him
self searching for the mother and father figure that can love her.
In
the midst of the codependent cycle, individual learns to focus on
satisfying the needs of others yet creates an internal polarity for
narsistic, passive-aggressive behavior. They experience resentment
and rage for having given up their power, their sense of what is right
and true, in hopes of creating peace and stability within the home.
Individuals who had to grow up quickly as a result of parenting their
parents, feel cheated out of childhood they never had, spending much
of their adult life blaming others, rebelling and hating life in general.
If it wasn't safe to express this anger within the family dynamic,
it is forced to turn inwardly, creating a self-hating entity within
the subconscious called the self-loather.
As
a form of self punishment, t's not long before archetypal resources
such as judge, critic and 
perfectionist
align with the individual's inner sabatuer to impede the dreams of
the natural child. These energies fill the head with mind chatter,
all the shoulda, coulda, woulda talk that attempts to make
the individual "good enough" to be loved.
Meanwhile, physically, this rage eats up the individual's daily supplies
of vitamin B's, zinc and tyrosine. If the individual's diet lacks
green leafy vegatables and other natural forms of these nutrients,
they will experience mood swings that are fueled by rage and irritability.
Based
upon internal beliefs of their own unworthiness, an individual growing
up neglects his or her own self care. "It
is only through things I do and acquire outside myself that brings
me value, attention and approval. Rather
than learning how to distinguish one's own needs, boundaries and responsibilities,
a adult child of codependency struggles with knowing what their purpose
in life is, what their limits are, how to establish values and goals
or follow the rules of society. They are the growing number of individuals
being diagnosed as bi-polar, hyperactive and attention deficit who
experience themselves as misfits, anxious and overwhelmed, as they
spend a lifetime either isolating themselves from society (depression)
or working very hard to fit in (mania).
In
summary, a legacy of unowned emotions passed down intergenerationally
can express it self within a person's mind as many incriminating subpersonalities.
With the creation of the adaptive self that seeks approval from others,
a split occurs within the individual's natural, authentic self and
the persona or mask created to gain acceptance.
Physically,
our biological makeup based upon heredity, plays an essential role
in how DNA, our brain pathways and temperament are formed. We spoke
earlier how an individual at a young age is not encouraged to express
his or her thoughts and feelings, the individual's psycholoical development
is regressed, creating adult child who has difficultly managing life.
As
emotions get bottled up inside, they become congested, dark and toxic,
putifying
the lympathic, endocrine and respiratory systems, causing illness
to the physical body. Food
sensitivities are prevalent among individuals suffering from manic
depression and attention deficit disorder because of the emotional
link between a traumatic event and foods they associate the event
with. Sensitivity to sound and light are common among individuals
with regressed traumatic experiences held within their subtle
bodies.
Triggered
by external stressors, debilitating beliefs and emo
tions,
stored within the subconscious, employs the brain to react with fight
or flight survival strategies that flood the body with hormones, causing
bio-chemical imbalances. Disengagement of the brain’s frontal lobe
perpetuates a negative infinity loop that leads to manic-depressive
cycles.
Nenteurons
serve as messengers of fear as the individual experiences the illusion
that they are separate from their Creator
SOurce on a spiritual level and fear of life and death
on an human dimension. Over time, dendrites lose their protective
plyon stheing . As a result, individuals experience the sensation
of being unprotected and boundriless. Internal demands for natural
salts, enzymes and vitamin B are insatible. When nutritional needs
are not met sufficiently for the body to cope, instability, 
overwhelm,
irritability and fatigue are experienced. Over time, subluxations
in the central nervous system are formed. These subluxations interfere
within the central nervous system's ability to properly orchestrate
all other systems in the body, affecting and depleting our immune
system - causing the vast number of undignosable and untreatable auto
immune illnesses prevalent in the United States.
You
now have the choice to heal your self, to come home to your heathly,
loving, whole self, with the support of a wise and skilled team...
"My
Hearts